i don't know what i feel now, what i think now

i will start this off without any words and i got so high that i scratched till i bled.
the finest day that i ever had. i learned to cry on command. i don't care if i'm old.
i don't mind if i don't have a mind. maybe i feel lonely, but that's ok.
i shaved my head and i'm not sad. i'm to blame for all i've heard but i'm not sure.
i don't what people think unless it is about me. the sun shines in the bedroom when i play guitar.
teenage angst has paid off well and now i feel bored and old. self appointed judges judge and my bones grew.
the sun is gone but i have a light. the day is done but i'm having fun.  think i'm dumb or maybe just happy?
i'm on my time with everyone and i have very bad posture. i'm so tired but i can't sleep.
what is wrong with me?
what do i think of me?
if i had to touch feeling and i forget just why i taste.
and there is nothing i could say. WELL, WHATEVER, NEVERMIND